This Is 39

Today is my Birthday and this is 39.

I should rephrase that. This is MY 39.

Each birthday I feel like everyone starts to look at their life and what they want to do different. I started thinking at the end of last year about 2019 as a whole. How this year will be the last year in my 30’s. I began to think about what I wanted to do and how I wanted to be when I am 40. I even told a friend that I wanted to get in the best shape of my life for when I turn 40.

That was the goal at the beginning of January, it’s still the goal. But in the last couple of weeks something has changed my thinking.

I noticed that when I thought about doing things, it was for the future or with a stipulation. When my kids are in school I will…When I lose the baby weight I will…When I get my hair cut I can…

I keep putting things off because I think there is something that needs to happen first.

Then about two weeks ago I found out about 3 things that I would love to do. That I think would be fun. Something clicked. I told my husband about these things and how I want to try them out. His response..” I think you should” It wasn’t, well if it happens what would happen with kids, what would be involved..It was basically him just saying “Go for it.”

Now, if you know my husband he is an analyzer. He wants to know the steps before things happen. He wants to know what the end result will be etc. (This is why I don’t tell him my DIY plans for the house, I just do it.) So it kind of caught me off guard but I was going to take it and run.

While thinking about doing these things, it finally dawned on me that I need to start living for the now. Not the when. I don’t need to get in shape for my 40th Birthday, I want to get in shape for now. I don’t want to wait till the kids are in school to do the things I want to do. I want to do them now.

I want to step out of my comfort zone and step out from behind my “whens” and try all the things. I want to stop doing what I don’t want to do. I want ask for what I want. I want go for the things I think are out of my reach.

This will be my 39 and your coming along.

The next year I am going to keep my promise of bringing you along. I am going to show you what I will try next, what will I go for, try out for, quit or dream. I want to inspire you to go for something you want.

You’re going to be seeing more of me as well because I am not going to wait until I lose 20lbs to do that YouTube video I want to do, or I’m not going to wait until my house is clean or put on makeup before I post that picture on Instagram.

So if you don’t want to see it..well, unfollow me now but I hope you’re along for the ride and I hope to inspire you as well. And those things 3 things…they’re happening this week. I will keep you posted.

This is MY 39.